there’s not a place that your love don’t affect me baby

dream home ends

BEDROOM!

dream home again..

Dining..

picturin'

(c) Linda, Heidi, minä

kitchen it is..

dream home continues..

bathroom..

my dream home ♥

Halusin tehdä pienoisen kollaasin ''unelmakodistani'', iski semmonen pieni sisustuskärpänen ku oon nyt katellu sisustusohjelmia.. 

Teen tän ''unelmakoti'' päivityksen osissa, muuten siitä tulis hyvin pitkä.. ja ensimmäisenä vuorossa on olohuone, joten yrittäkää saada selvää mun visiosta..

I'm not a stranger

No I am yours

With crippled anger

And tears that still drip sore

A fragile flame aged

Is misery

And when our hearts meet

I know you see

I do not want to be afraid

I do not want to die inside just to breathe in

I'm tired of feeling so numb

Relief exists I find it when 

I am cut

I may seem crazy

Or painfully shy

And these scars wouldn't be so hidden 

If you would just look me in the eye

I feel alone here and cold here

Though I don't want to die

But the only anesthetic that makes me feel anything kills inside

I do not want to be afraid

I do not want to die inside just to breathe in

I'm tired of feeling so numb

Relief exists I find it when 

I am cut

Pain

I am not alone

I am not alone

I'm not a stranger

No I am yours

With crippled anger

And tears that still drip sore

But I do not want to be afraid

I do not want to die inside just to breathe in

I'm tired of feeling so numb

Relief exists I found it when

I was cut

lovin' it !

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sorry for the tears

I'm sorry already, this post is gonna be full of pain I feel right now..

I haven't felt this much pain in a long time.. I don't want to feel it now, not tomorrow, not ever.. It hasn't felt like this since I don't know when.. I feel sadness, anger, hate even, all of that is pain that doesn't go away and just keeps getting worse every minute.

This place, that I call home, this doesn't feel like home to me. I don't want to be here, I just want to go back home.. I don't know where my home is, I just know that it's not here.. I want to move away, I just can't do it..

I've been thinking is this what I want, is this career what I want, I don't know anymore. I want to change school, I want to go back.. I would want to move back to Mäntsälä..

I don't know what to do anymore with my life.. I'm in a breaking point where I need to decide whether to fall or to get my life on track...

shopping, movies, vampire diaries..

So, me, Linda and Heidi went shopping yesterday and we did find some good stuff from sales, I found leggings, two shirts and hooded knit, Linda found a knit as well and Heidi found a top, leggings and a knit... After shopping we ate and me and Heidi left to my place and Linda went home to walk her dog and to get her camera and then she came to my place.. We had a sort of a girls night playing wii and eating tortillas..

Today we went to see Real Steel, what an awesome movie, I could've watched it again right after.. We had a lot of time before the movie started so we decided to use money to play car games and dance games.. After the movie Linda went home and Heidi too, she just came by my place to get all of her stuff from me..

Now.. I'm just watching the first seasons episodes of The Vampire Diaries.. I didn't think I would want to see these from the beginning but, I gotta say that the serie is pretty good.. Heidi got the first two seasons on dvd so she borrowed the first to me..

new address

Sorry for the address change..

I don't really have much to tell, christmas was nothing special, I spent it with relatives.. I'll put up pics of the gifts I got when I get back home.

New year's eve I spent at my dads house with dad and my lovely girlfriend.. :)

We've been doing nothing but sit on the computer, go shopping, eat and sleep.. Oh! we also rented two movies yesterday and were done watching them at 02.45 am.

I'm just gonna put up some pics 'cause I don't have anything else in my mind :)

missing pictures..?

I noticed that the pics I tried to put here, never showed up in here..